It is never quite an easy task, quitting something you’ve grown accustomed to. The road that leads to your decision to quit is bound to be filled with excuses and compromises, long-winded negotiations and half-baked convictions. That particular routine that you want to quit started out as a playful trial run, which then slowly blossomed into an addicting habit. And now it has come to a point when you know that it’s bad for you, but you continue to do it anyway.
And then one day, you wake up and you realize: What the hell am I doing with my life?” Sometimes, you might ask that same question with some expletives thrown into the mix. It could be you’re finally absorbing all the words that have been said to you by friends, family, or even by that character from your favorite TV program. It could be that when you look in the mirror, you don’t like what you see. Or, you might have been inspired into action by something you recently saw or heard. Whatever it is, it has made you all worked up, ready to accomplish any daunting task, ready to stamp out any vile vice.
But as some of you may already have experienced, it is never quite an easy task, quitting something you’ve grown accustomed to.
But still, you try. Because you don’t just suddenly wake up and find yourself free; you have to constantly work towards it. You don’t just find yourself suddenly without cravings; you slowly let each one go. You will be tempted, mocked, challenged, and laughed at, every step of the way. Some people will look forward to seeing you fail. They will doubt your resolve so much, and taunt you every chance they get, that you’ll sometimes end up doubting yourself. Like the silent ocean that erodes the mountain side, you’ll find pieces of yourself being slowly washed away.
But still, you try. Because they do not hold your future; these vices will not decide what happens in your life. Only you have the power to change your fate for the better. They say that winners never quit, and quitters never win. Not always. The day you decide to quit that unhealthy habit is the day that you start winning your life back. And each day that follows since then is a victory– a momentous, hard-earned victory. It may take a while for you to get used to the situation, and there will be times when you want to just.. return to that habit, plunge back into its arms. But you know better already. You know that there’s no longer any point in prolonging this dead-end relationship. And you know, that you deserve better. There’s no reason for you to stay one second longer in this broken down carousel.
With a renewed passion for life, you jump off; and you start walking away.
So when will this end? It goes on and on
Over and over, and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won’t stop
Till I step down from this, for good
-Lifehouse, “Sick Cycle Carousel”